babe, kamu dimana ya ?

Mama came home with Macd and bubbletea.
sumthing to cheer me up,lol .
my dad wont top up my prepaid cos he knw i'll msg my someone at nyte
and wont study . Mepek laa.
bf or no bf, i still fail wat .-_-
i got new papa. Papa gwee,lol . laugh fisha laugh

talked to fyqa till like 1230 .
went inside my room and atlast found a text message frm hym .
i almost broke down when i talked to fyqa on some issues though,
smth only we share . bluek =p
she undrstand me cos she put myself in her shoes .
i appreciate tht so much .


and YOUUU ~
engkau sudah berubah ....
planning to bring out some points , like who cares what the other party might feel ?
i love debating .

y'knw wad, it took me like four to five mnths to be in a rship , cos i really dont want to .
i dont want hystory to repeat, and blah blah blah ..
BUT i decided to change my mind on 080808, thinking i wont regret.
thinking he meant hys promises. thinking he cud takecare of me.
how to takecare of me when you're in sucha state, boy ?
thinking he wud be with me thru thick and thin.
thinking he wont hide anything, nothing at all frm me .
thinking he wasnt like any other guy who had hurt me .

read tht part again, THINKING, fat hope sia pika .
i frgt this, semuer lelaki same. hah ..

eversince friday, we didnt meet at all . or even talked .
when we were suppose to cherish that ONE WEEK he had ..
instead, we wasted like five days being stupid ..

ive got alot to say, but he keeps on blaming and blaming me i feel like
im nothing to hym . fyqa phm part ni.
which i think rufisha and hym wont understand ..

are u gonna walked off on me ?
cos we belong in two different worlds .
i think after all, i dont even know who you really are ..
we dont understand each other .. so ?
want me to berambos kn ..

its so sad to find out things only after my bestfriend knw abt it .
Picture this .
Me waiting for ur calls, messages, ever since tht nyte u said u were with ur
mom angkat .. wait and wait until the next day ..
the next day will again ..
and found out things that arent supposed to find out .
the worst part is, my BESTFRIEND knew abt it before i do .
the worst part is, u confided in her instead of me.
the worst part is, you prefer talking to her cos she understands u better .
dont u gv a damn abt my feelings ?
im like one idiot waiting and waiting only to find such fucking things abt you ?

do u knw that UNTOK and KERANA are different ?
u toook IT for me, but bcos of RINA , asshole .
geddit ? she introduced u all of this shit, its fucking not to do with me at all .
are u hurt now ? try being in my shoes .

bottom line : STOP BLAMING ME !
i fucking cant stand it !


aku tk phm kau? itu je ke kao bole ckp!?

ask urself .. when u were with me, ade cntct dier? ader jumpe dier?

kiwekk, when u guys go NDP pon aku tk ckp pape sakk ..ughhhh~!!!

i happen to stumble upon cynthia's blog and friendster,its abt this particular sec two girl whom me and darla hated frm the start .wont mention her name, desription only . heHee.tis girl, HAS hair extension, step mane peh ' minah stylish' and bytheway,she's a flirt =p
haiss, pity herr . she thinks ppl are gona be afraid of her coz she talks in a fanatic way ..darla totally hate her and wenever we saw her,darla speaks about her..biar die terase. hoho

shant say anymore (;